WHAT IS LONELINESS

youtube makes me less lonely
facebook makes me less lonely
runescape makes me less lonely
saying "hi" to someone on the street
when im walking to buy groceries
makes me less lonely
hearing birdsongs makes me less lonely
it is incased in the word OXYTOCIN
which only means CLOSENESS
it doesnt have to be sex
like many crave nowadays
it can just be a smile from a stranger
which enlightens your day or even whole life

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everyone is alone, always.

true love and true
friendship can
change that
but for most people
we are always alone
no matter how fun
we seem to have
with people
we are alone
alone and confused
in this huge world

as it is said
we are born alone
we live alone
and we died alone

and besides
i dont feel alone
when im doodling or
painting or walking in the woods
hearing birdsong or
photoshopping or making
music or writing poetry

i am one with a spirit
thats enough for me
i never had many friends
and i lost my best friend
in sixth grade in school
and looked for him ever after

i had a older friend who i
chatted with several years
except that
friends have been temporary

but i continued my arts
and also walking
and that has made it ok

i accidentally went on
slashdot
and there it said
christian sörensen
the security expert
that was him
and hes ok
i hope

it says he lives alone
does he miss me
i dont know

i guess he
parties a lot
but maybe
hes alone
more than me

i wouldnt
know what
to say
to him
on the
phone

maybe one day
i will make
the first step

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the gentle steps
of a leaf
crossing the street

the sounds
of an oldskool
mobile phone

the feeling of my
winter body thawing
in the spring sun

the urge for my heart
to feel something again

for someone
somewhere
again
please
i need it

i cry now
so my heart is alive
for the very first time

but i dont feel love
only sadness
happy sadness

maybe thats
what its like
to grow old
to miss things
people
happenings
places

a joyful remembrance
there is no hate
there is no indifference
there is only
love
for everything
everyone
everywhere

hi
my name is emma
emma johansson
im mostly sad
i can make people happy
but its only a
defence mechanism

i prefer being by myself
emma means home
but also universe
the universe is my home
my home is my universe

i like it here
hope you sneak by sometime
feel my world
i like it anyway
hope you do too