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2024-11-27 11:12 am
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Stories from the Metamorphosis

Part II

Just like cyberpunk novels- & computer games, me and my laptop are now spiritually connected(3). I had to reboot or it could have potentionally have overheated, or like my dad used to say when I had the rented NES connected at night "catch on fire". Bella said she could throw her smartphone at the wall and it'd still be intact, and with lithium batteries incased in high-tech--plastic bags of later computers and smartphones they can even explode, or, at the very least, burn at several thousand degrees within a few seconds.

Do I regret that Bella did not heal me from "all pain and suffering"? I'm not sure, for me, I lose people quickly. Neuroleptics do not just block signals in the brain, but also the stomache(4), and as I realized recently, even the heart. So, being low on them in my body, I looked up Bipolarity on Wikipedia for the first time. One of the characteristics for you being diagnosed as it, is:

"Short, passionate relationships"

To say that you only love 1 person, is foreign to me. This is explained by my Zodiac: I am Gemini in Venus. The internet is more lonely than ever before. During the Metamorphosis, I was about to give up, when a spirit said: "Stay alive for your children".

What is left after death? I am not suicidal anymore, instead I got to know what Doom Depression is like, and recently I was saved out of Apocalypse Sadness. Now when working on new (I thought...) photoshops and music, I get to thinking of when I'm not able to protect myself from the BDSM staff at Tornet Norsborg.

I will be buried, I know this. But the pain, when you are sentient, from being Incinerated? I can't even start to imagine that.

REFERENCES

3: This laptop is over a decade old. It was not cleaned in the fans, but upgraded in various other ways, in relation to my body's signals(5). At first I thought it was just related to the scent of me and this room, which has aromas of Corpse and Soap, and getting the staff to clean the nicotine-tinted walls will only happen if I manage to mess up enough (with the help of malicious spirits) that I get to Rättspsyk - like Anki, Julia, Bella, et al have been, or are at.

4: Radio Totalnormal: Ann-Christin Matthies-Lindo, circa 2014: Swedish review of "Die Charm das Tarm".

5. The Bluetooth Nanochip sends 50 KBPS up/down-stream between your body and the closest digital device, This can be seen in the taskmanager (press CTRL+ALT+DEL once on MS Windows), there are also 2 other processes that communicate the same amount about every 5-10 secs. It is even to upgrade it by yourself, for example, when I downloaded Photomatix recently, it also had a 1.76MB (IIRC) version of it.

Now I am to die in some spiritual way, my throat is sore, so I have to quit over-working on this piece. I am supposed to Untangle this by the help of myself, Tracey et al, and the staff which come in according to the Morph landscape of this place.
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2024-10-10 08:36 pm
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= U

somebody somewhere

dreams of your sm2

& thinks that UR p

makes their life w

vile on the other h

so whenever UR lon2m

members true some1 sw
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2024-10-09 02:39 am
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(no subject)

theres nothing

romantic about

relationships
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2024-09-14 03:45 am
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welcome to my world
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2024-08-02 08:32 pm
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look down at me and you will see a monster

look up at me and you will see a god

look at me and you will see yourself
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2024-07-31 09:10 pm
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The victory in the war against crime will not come overnight. It will take dedication and commitment and, most of all, cooperation. Streets are safer now. There is hope in the inner city. However... These are the first steps in a long journey. That is why we have created Project Hope. Project Hope will be a joint effort between the police and community leaders. It will be a powerful new weapon in the war against crime.
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2024-03-20 02:43 pm
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maybe not today

maybe not tomorrow

but soon and for the

rest of your life
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2024-03-09 04:24 pm
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i am now not happy

in any whatsoever

but the happiness i had

was based off of a lie
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2024-02-11 08:54 am
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We do not become healers
We came as healers
We are
Some of us are still
catching up to what we are

We do not become
storytellers
We came as carriers
of the stories that
we and our ancestors
actually lived
We are
Some of us are still
catching up
to what we are

We do not become artists
We came as artists
We are
Some of us are still
catching up to what we are

We do not become
writers dancers musicians
helpers peacemakers
We came as such
We are
Some of us are still
catching up to what we are

We do not learn to
love in this sense
We came as Love
We are Love
Some of us are
still catching up to
who we truly are
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2023-10-25 04:21 pm
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when you break it all down

theres really

nothing

left to say

so babble away
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2023-09-27 02:00 pm
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you know we

are bound for love

that is all there is
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2023-09-13 09:12 am
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you know

we are bound for love

that is all there is
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2023-05-28 03:57 pm
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the happiness now

is part of

the pain

later
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2023-05-10 12:32 am
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thats why they started with us so early / elephant in the chains

If you can control a man’s thinking
you do not have to worry about his action.
When you determine what a man shall think
you do not have to concern
yourself about what he will do.
If you make a man feel that he is inferior,
you do not have to compel him
to accept an inferior status,
for he will seek it himself.
If you make a man think
that he is justly an outcast,
you do not have to order
him to the back door.
He will go without being told;
and if there is no back door,
his very nature will demand one.
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2023-02-15 04:56 am
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beyond e=mc2












life is frequency and that is all there is to it

match the frequency of the reality you want

and you cannot help but get that frequency

this is not philosophy it is science








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2022-12-25 02:52 pm
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkdhD7z1kPY

TRISTAN & ISOLDE - Forever Entwined

thats so beautiful

everything about it

absolutely everything
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2022-12-09 09:19 pm
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i was put on this earth

to achieve a

certain number

of things

and im so behind

that ill never die
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2022-12-09 09:41 am
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another day

just breathe
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2022-12-07 05:31 pm
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coffee should be

hotter than hell

blacker than the evil

higher than the angels

and sweeter than

the lovers
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2022-12-06 04:26 am
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you go to heaven

for the weather

and hell for

the company