if numbers make you happy youll never be happy because numbers never end

you almost feel ashamed

that someone could

be that important

when things start to go well again

your thoughts lighten

from the dirty ones

of before

revenge

is a

dish best

served cold

advice

when most needed

is least heeded

its a beautiful sunset. blood orange and butter. met that wonderful lady again. she gave me cig and coffee and dip. and divined me. except i get anxiety from her. she wanted me to buy her a new smartphone. but i dont see the point. i might. but i wont ask anything of her. miss neighbor doesnt give me anxiety so thats just amazing <3 so shes like bella. and she swears like julia. so thats wonderful! ^__^ but i know she just wants to steal my cigs, so, hey, cant get too close :( i also got a big long hug from her. but as she gives me despair it doesnt really matter. since i started with drugs, and that time i took coke really, i dont wish for anything anymore. im dead inside. or its just because im borderline now. anxiety is just anxiety, but when im tired (soon after waking up) i just think its all shit. worse than ever before. dont take coke, kids, ok? its atrociuos. i dont care if my writing turned better or that i got to know sofia. if you lose your soul, whats the point? kids, dont take drugs. rhiannon, kirin, but youve probably tried it all already havent you? ("yes daddy"). awesome =( hey was a nice experience. didnt write a poem about her. the best poems i wrote before i met bella. in the beginning of miss radio show. really. id lie in bed and contoct poems. like... just... it was amazing. ida made a song about that. its under idamo on soundcloud. its called "daydream". she made an ep about me when i visited her in her hometown maybe sort of awesome anyway! ^___^ ate 2 boiled eggs. i just bring the water up to boiling point and have the eggs already in when its cold and just turn it off then and let it simmer in warm water they get beyond boiled then its nice to take care of the earth dont waste water or heat but OMG ITS SO FUCKING COLD AAAAH what are those weird things they call "seasons" anyway we had 3 weeks autumn AND THAT WAS IT. before it was a steady 8 degrees and we had 1 week of real summer 1 day before midsummer we celebrate midsommer a lot ie drink lots of booze alcohol only fucks you up i see no positive things about it everyones so fucking sad because beer has eaten their souls ive lived through the pain and im happy for that <3 oh i wrote a lot now i didnt notice. i get flow easily when talking and writing and photoshopping and abletoning :)

the most

feminine part

is the stomache

oh your life sucks?

you hate your job?

theres a support

group for that

its called EVERYONE

and they meet at the pub

you go to heaven

for the weather

and hell for

the company

happiness

is just

an illusion

filled with

sadness

and confusion

everything happens for a reason

and if you look back on everything

which has made us sit in this room

together you will see where the

order is where you are is amazing

where i am is amazing where

we all are is amazing

an artist

brings life into

otherwise dead pieces of source

help the source back to life back to union

survival of the fittest

is about raping as

many as possible

before you dick rots off

and your brain falls out

survival of the fittest

is about raping as many as possible

before you dick rots off and your brains fall out