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Feb. 22nd, 2024 04:03 pmthe meaning of life
is to find your gift
the purpose of life
is to give it away
is to find your gift
the purpose of life
is to give it away
on biorythm
Mar. 3rd, 2023 09:53 ameverything happens for a reason
and if you stand right where you are now
and you look down and back to everything
to all the events that lead up to you
sitting in this room right now with me
youll see where the order is
where you are right now is amazing
where i am is amazing
where we all are is amazing
and if you stand right where you are now
and you look down and back to everything
to all the events that lead up to you
sitting in this room right now with me
youll see where the order is
where you are right now is amazing
where i am is amazing
where we all are is amazing
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Dec. 12th, 2022 05:40 pmhi gemdae <3 <3
so. no tatu. maybe i mentioned. dunno.
had some anxiety. except, it wasnt like before where i get all twitchy. and not having demons attacking you is annoying, since you just lie there, no thoughts no nothing, as if time stands still.
still some trailing anxiety, but its alright, i guess. anxiety / despair / desert emotion, is just gods (the greys) punishment, so it heals your soul, your karma.
its a good idea to shower afterwards, since the bad karma gets on your bedclothes sängkläder.
its called pheromones.
except, i dont only believe in pheromones, since it was can distributed automagically in the ether no matter the distance. like, how your emotions are, what youve got on for clothes, where your other hand is, affects how people talk to you on the phone (especially, if they ever answer). so the ether has to exist. thought about that some years ago lots anyway..... =( ........... ^_______^
was bored, went to xvids, was still bored. maybe someone that looked like miss gem treasure rhiannon goddess queen supreme etc. doesnt really matter. shes gone gone gone.
does matter. miss star is gone too. so its just tracey and i. which is alright. i smoke and pretend to like people on facebook, except im in supreme misery now, so people are fake and mean.
well. ill live. hopefully.
so, the agenda 2030 is now agenda 2032. were all dead, basically, in a year.
i saw this some year ago, in la belle epoque that is. it costs 500 krona to go to söder. just once. or something like that. sucks.
anyway, they made a new rfid card, its green. its alright. things dont have to happen like the prophecies say. since only false prophets exist. legends fight prophets. kill em. hmm. who killed jesus? name plz?
judas. right. dunno much about the bible. have met lots of christians. you know. its sweden. theyre not exactly wica / wicca.
hmm. feels like time is still standing still. i guess thats what happens when you take too much coke. just once. but hey. im special.
so miss gem said that my replies to her messages arrived BEFORE she had replied. lol. trip. didnt know that. miss romania said about the same thing. hmm. lol. cool.
so. have been listening to the aaftermentioend song. now i wanna change. because i get synthetic light. and it makes me hiiiiiii-ia-ai.
Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry (Personal) (Official Music Video)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=agrXgrAgQ0U
hmm. no idea who that is. i guess i heard it on the radio some time long time ago time.
hey. i made bella cry for real once. then some yearsome later she said "i will try to be a better person". "jag ska försöka bli en bättre människa". something like that. its fading. great. love plants. mom curse. awesome.
nope. didnt get that tatu. mr tatuist said i need to apoint a time tomorrow. rrrrrright.
so i started crying at left, when i was outside i also got angry. awesome. love cigs. and some 50 meters form the parlour i got the telepathy "angel number". ok. awesome. its just what einstein said BTW
anyway. with the christmas presents was also a flower. i figured it was that red one. but its a white purple pink one. hyacinth. its 3 of em. its sweet. flowers are amazing. i guess.
i placed mr flower in the window. its grown. not a lot. i think 1 of em is purple,
these are tough plants, but having one outside is probably not a good idea, what with all the smokers.
oh right miss knifesouth got some psykbryt / freaked out majorly. its ok. first time i heard that.
before, any american wannabe wanted to be like marilyn monroe. did she make it more better or more worse?
oh right. she was a hottie and she liked geeks. like julia. and bella. sweet = * )
bella was a geek and julia was a borgarbrack (own words).
i fixed julias stereo, wasnt much bother. she had expensive quality things. she was cool. its over.
i write about her sometimes. its alright. with despair.
"ångest utan ångest med ångest" (in reverse)
anyway. miss gem gave me shivers. its something ive acquired now. and i can only get chills when im cold.
warm shivers havent been fun. anyway = (
warm adrenaline shivers. sounds like an awesome song idea.
its cold here. but its alright. maybe +-0. have the oil heater. element we call em. its a metal thingie with some oil innit which a heater cable wire thingie heats up. so it doesnt have to heat all the time like if it was a fan. smart. good. doesnt cost that much. i happened to drop it once when vacuuming i think? and one of the plastic legs is iffy.
take care of things. kokoro. the heart of things. ko---ko'ro. to---ky'o. wakashita i dunno how to pronounce.
anyway. got another christmas present. from haikigrandma or some name like that.
as for miley cyrus. dunno if i ever heard party in the usa before.
used to listen to my own record collection. not mr radio since mr radio was mean.
to my frequency. feel like shit frequency + same ol 10 songs = not fun.
why p2 public service radio classical opera felicia elektroniskt in p2 was good.
after id jumped etc.
hey my mom cursed me so i would kill myself. great mom. love her.
got a curse on mr poetry site.
first it was
bra
i replied with
fjollrunkare (fagget wankeuh)
got the response
dö
well. sucks.
this typeface sucks. since hte dots ¨ are like almost not visible. stupid. anyway = (
anyway. i could return to deviantart. except its not all white background and black text.
the default is a particular green shade.
it wasnt for freaks before. it was actually called
deviantart
where art meets application
so there. hey, wonder what koalaelf is up to.
i sucked before. i suck less now. thus things are better. not.
i have a better flow. and i live 1 hour in the future. ok. cool.
and now it says my time is norway. makes sense. maybe.
last year the average temperature between nov and dec was -20.
well. didnt really notice it. just went to the mall once a day if even that yep probably anyway.
today it was -7. so not that bad.
its usually coldest in february.
in march you can tan.
anyway. used to be like that. things change.
it used to be one day with -24. one day a year. anyway.
then you got a halo on the sun. since it snows at that temperature.
ice crystals. neat. it was that some day ago.
someone had photoed em on facebook.
and it was light pillars too.
saw one once, on the bus to söder from tumba.
anyway. i leaned against the train wall, closed eyes.
it was ok. back and forth. cried some on the way there.
cried more on the way home.
someone actually sat near me. evolution. awesome.
hey my spine doesnt fall apart when i have anxiety now.
that sucks before. anyway. should buy actual things from boutiques.
anyway. good idea. bought some things at the seco-FUCK YOU DIDNT GIVE ME MY CDS.
ok. will try again. should go to pet sounds and bengans and find some cd.
i can rip now. yep. this ye olde comp has a cd player. awesome.
cant stand the light though. or the sound.
ive wasted at least 99% of my life. sucks.
thus being a shiva or ganesha or buddha is easy-er at places where they think
those sort of people are good people.
anyway, a buddha at one point in evolution
only needs to eat 1 single grain of rice per day. cool peoples.
what song to find. hmm.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ekZEVeXwek
have you heard ariana grande, tracey?
i hadnt. that song bella sent me. so its large amounts of awesome. anyway. listen! or else! you get the ban hammer! er. no. anyway =(
anyway. its weird. i can drink a lot of water but not much happens. i dont pee a lot.
except, i dont think anything when i pour water from the tap.
so its pretty....er... natural. anyway. vouf! ^_____^
oink! bacon! hiss! elevator!
so. there were people on the commute.
and in town.
miss psychologist said once that i used to go to cafés where there were as few peoples as possible.
dont remember that time. i was sad. like everyone all the time seems to be.
if i you take too much drugs, your soul dies or body or something.
aka groundhog day aka deja vu alllllll the time.
so. dont do drugs. drugs suck.
be a fatty like me instead. its much better.
dont check the mirror smash it and never get a new.
if youre gonna use a scale. theres new scales.
they send an electric current from one leg to another.
and it gives a reading on percentages of
bone
fat
muscle
water
anyway. they dont cost a lot.
so if you wanna be stuck as a number, as a statistic. be my guest. "weigh" yourself.
check to see in the mirror if you rump has gotten bigger since you slept.
if it has, it means youre an asshole.
so dont be an asshole.
like... walk. along the beach. woods. streets. anything.
its good for you. starving yourself is stupid.
since i dont look like popular macho guys.
i really dont care.
or id be a porn star.
and those suck.
oh. right. nothingness.
i can start wars. except theyre all fake. but not to everyone.
all i have to do is listen to sunhiausa enough.
i started the ukraine war. awesome.
except, after a month of playing
nothingness
mr dealer got tired of hearing it.
hmm.
should i listen?
ruin the world?
"what software company do i want to embrace expand extinguish now?"
- billie G
wow. im so cool. im so great. and ive written a lot. and thats awesome.
fight the future? nope. fight the present. fight the past.
"sleeping with the past". where elthon johns sacrifice song is on.
found it at a second hand in the middle of nowhere. parents. etc.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HOqYR-hYqsc
I KISSED A GOY / BIRL
anyway. awesome.
wow. im miserable. at least i can write.
people are just mean on facebook.
thats my world. changes. lots.
if i dont eat sugar for like a week.
i can build muscles real fast.
its called the atkins diet.
heard of it tracey?
how druish lived.
they got quite strong.
could swim across the atlantic. wowzah.
hands quite cold. sucks.
dont do drugs.
you get superpowers.
but youre not really alive.
anyway. i used to be a stone. didnt know that.
i call it desensitized.
so wont forget that murder threat.
wow. poetry. rhyme. excellent.
and a couple.
seeing soccer VM with the guys was boooooooooring.
wow. this songs sucks.
lets listen to fire water burn.
because that brings a good vibe. right.
anyway. im not much gay. im getting there. awesome. ti nivol mi.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pok8H_KF1FA
doja cat. say so.
ashley lawless version is better. hepatica. like the countess.
shes sweet. wanna call her. dont want her to like. die. would suck.
but i have so much despair now. that its not a good idea.
tried to add her on facebook. didnt work.
julia posted like 10 pics of her crying.
while she had me blocked. obviously. so you should spy. makes sense.
everyone has MPD these days. gooooo with the floooooow.
i just have 1 name at a time.
then when ive ruined the name or someone else
or some text or some text from someone else.
then i find something new.
like leeloo. she had lotsa names. so i wanted lotsa names.
i made something memorable.¨
lesse.
pxy seas adamantine morphid ataraxiaabyss phoenixdolphin.
and on it goes. mpd woah. "shadows" delete bella tosaysobehavedonelie.
wow. cant tell between i and l. and big I looks like small eye.
smoking sucks. dont do it. it rots your brainz.
but if your brains are +90% alcohol it wont rot i guess. "det skvalpar".
it will turn to lithium or formaline instead then. or something.
anyway. swedish sucks. cant write it here. but i will.
i change. lots. so i died when i was 39. quite late. but. hey. awesome.
some dude held up the door for me. so its alright.
im apart of the brotherhood now. awesome.
same shit different day.
stephen king said that. yep. he did.
so i can choose between everyone being mean.
or everyone ignoring me. hmm. tough question.
have pants t shirt shirt on.
got a voodoo curse. "cancer". awesome.
i am quite straight. anyway. didnt know that. weird.
miss gem <3 youre cool.
like a mix between sara and me and more. large amounts of awesome.
guldstjärna i taket. .. . .. . . .* . . . .. .. .. .
goldstar in the ceiling. they did that in kindergarten and early states of gradeschool.
we had lots of teachers. all the time. great.
so maybe theresias name was johansson.
and shes a rapper. wouldnt really fit her.
tessa, common name. i guess.
she was albanian. shit.
i heard she used to wait for patients to almost die before resusicating them.
well. nobodys perfect.
"psychopaths dont hear the voice of satan, they hear the voice of god"
oh. was gonna post that as personal quote on miss poetry site.
they deleted my account. didnt even say anything. well. suckage.
im in the poetry collection theyre gonna release before christmas.
so thats major. its like 50 poets or more innit.
will ask miss economy if she can buy me some.
should send one to miss mom.
"i hope youre making the fam proud"
some dude on twitter.
oh. got suspended on twitter from a 2 second though. sucks.
so elon musk whines about CORONA? youre a tad bit late hipster loser.
he pretends like monkeypox wasnt a deal for awhile. asshole.
and that SO NEW tech is coming, the nanocomputers dont exist!
of course not payed opposition.
he is obviously not owned by the saudis. no way.
made a saudi prose-poem. i think i posted it here.
got 2 likes 1 comment. awesome. everyone loves me.
wow. have written lots. like. WHY?
its not poetry quality, not literary quality.
anyway. should post on multiple places.
so if i get delete happy i dont uh.
delete something of value.
its 3 months on facebook 1 year on livejournal sites.
for the deletion to happen.
quite awesome. i have some 1400 bloglings
so no way i would have the energy to delete that much.
anyway. traceys tough. gotta be tough against my demons.
DEleteMONS. mandy. man-die. what some douche monster is calling when i started this blogging thing.
not good.
maybe i should eat something. oh. right. corn flakes. awesome.
the original and best.
real old trademark.
hey.
there was no such thing as the slavetrade.
they had a nuclear war some 100 years ago in africa aka sahara.
so the whiteys who they enslaved saved me. assholes.
its called the titanomachy in the bible
or dead sea scrolls or sumfin.
hmm. 4 dip at once. they call snus dip in american accent.
said miss gem. ill keep your love forever with me.
aka jean grae. awesome.
ive had eating disorders twice actually.
sort of ate next to nothing. for some months.
in 2013-2014 and 2021. yep.
wasnt that bothersome really.
it was really lonely the first time.
the second time i took green tea extract.
made me tired and angry. sucks.
anyway cant eat veggies or greens or orange juice anymore.
its shock full of graphene. sucks.
anyway. had 500 kronor yesterday. 1500 today. so thats nice.
eating food doenst do much to me. not anymore.
if ever.
take care of your teeth. important. or not.
tracey good rolemodel. rent hjärta.
anyway. oh. took lössnus. feel horrible.
shouldnt really chew anything chewy anymore.
since i cant drink coffee anymore.
since it went to my synapses or whatever.
ruined my ears. balans sinnet.
so she for real thought this was jeffs account?
well. sucks.
right foot hurting on left side.
yep. thats me. hypocondriac.
oh. right. mr tatu opened my jacket.
telekinetically. it was like 7 buttons.
and just. magic. weird.
sourcecode. angel numbers. awesome.
should i stalk miss gem?
i dunno. probably bad idea. or good.
i wreck people.
not much you can do about it.
its your darkness.
same amount as light.
½
yin yang.
50 / 50.
no miss poetry site. ok. sucks.
should get that book somehow.
things are somewhat calm.
and ive written a lot.
awesome. or not. you never know.
oh. wasnt banned. the account just disappeared.
cyber demons aka faes. luv em <3
you shouldnt call yourself ak 47 fully automatic.
because then some swedish gang will kill
your daughter with a yugoslavian imported ak-4,
thats swedish and russian and yeah yugoslavian hate.
anyway. kirins alive.
BTW.
my avatar is the same colour as a hindu lotus.
quite awesome. didnt know that. thanxxx.
oh! as i was walking from the deja vu in söder.
it was a sunset solnedgång already.
it was cerise. and. uh. faded to the normal azure.
was pretty. i dont photo anymore and
it was lots of buildings in the way.
it faded in a few mins. anyway. pretty.
"nature did not ask to be photographed"
i figured. so. hey. dont make prettiest.
because if you photo something pretty
and photoshop it
and upload it
then delete it
bad things happen
didnt know.
sorry.
oh. just write all day. how fun.
1 message on facebook. cant wait.
some sicko messaged me. awesome.
wow. got 3 likes on some trump qanon thingie.
awesome. equilant to the 3 cigs ive smoked.
which ill get cancer from.
because muhajeddins love me </3 obviously. wow. tired. havent slept. just anti-rested. should find good song. mood song. no idea. to buy 1 single cd. should do so. if i have faith in myself i have the universe against me. almost. anyway. posting.
so. no tatu. maybe i mentioned. dunno.
had some anxiety. except, it wasnt like before where i get all twitchy. and not having demons attacking you is annoying, since you just lie there, no thoughts no nothing, as if time stands still.
still some trailing anxiety, but its alright, i guess. anxiety / despair / desert emotion, is just gods (the greys) punishment, so it heals your soul, your karma.
its a good idea to shower afterwards, since the bad karma gets on your bedclothes sängkläder.
its called pheromones.
except, i dont only believe in pheromones, since it was can distributed automagically in the ether no matter the distance. like, how your emotions are, what youve got on for clothes, where your other hand is, affects how people talk to you on the phone (especially, if they ever answer). so the ether has to exist. thought about that some years ago lots anyway..... =( ........... ^_______^
was bored, went to xvids, was still bored. maybe someone that looked like miss gem treasure rhiannon goddess queen supreme etc. doesnt really matter. shes gone gone gone.
does matter. miss star is gone too. so its just tracey and i. which is alright. i smoke and pretend to like people on facebook, except im in supreme misery now, so people are fake and mean.
well. ill live. hopefully.
so, the agenda 2030 is now agenda 2032. were all dead, basically, in a year.
i saw this some year ago, in la belle epoque that is. it costs 500 krona to go to söder. just once. or something like that. sucks.
anyway, they made a new rfid card, its green. its alright. things dont have to happen like the prophecies say. since only false prophets exist. legends fight prophets. kill em. hmm. who killed jesus? name plz?
judas. right. dunno much about the bible. have met lots of christians. you know. its sweden. theyre not exactly wica / wicca.
hmm. feels like time is still standing still. i guess thats what happens when you take too much coke. just once. but hey. im special.
so miss gem said that my replies to her messages arrived BEFORE she had replied. lol. trip. didnt know that. miss romania said about the same thing. hmm. lol. cool.
so. have been listening to the aaftermentioend song. now i wanna change. because i get synthetic light. and it makes me hiiiiiii-ia-ai.
Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry (Personal) (Official Music Video)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=agrXgrAgQ0U
hmm. no idea who that is. i guess i heard it on the radio some time long time ago time.
hey. i made bella cry for real once. then some yearsome later she said "i will try to be a better person". "jag ska försöka bli en bättre människa". something like that. its fading. great. love plants. mom curse. awesome.
nope. didnt get that tatu. mr tatuist said i need to apoint a time tomorrow. rrrrrright.
so i started crying at left, when i was outside i also got angry. awesome. love cigs. and some 50 meters form the parlour i got the telepathy "angel number". ok. awesome. its just what einstein said BTW
anyway. with the christmas presents was also a flower. i figured it was that red one. but its a white purple pink one. hyacinth. its 3 of em. its sweet. flowers are amazing. i guess.
i placed mr flower in the window. its grown. not a lot. i think 1 of em is purple,
these are tough plants, but having one outside is probably not a good idea, what with all the smokers.
oh right miss knifesouth got some psykbryt / freaked out majorly. its ok. first time i heard that.
before, any american wannabe wanted to be like marilyn monroe. did she make it more better or more worse?
oh right. she was a hottie and she liked geeks. like julia. and bella. sweet = * )
bella was a geek and julia was a borgarbrack (own words).
i fixed julias stereo, wasnt much bother. she had expensive quality things. she was cool. its over.
i write about her sometimes. its alright. with despair.
"ångest utan ångest med ångest" (in reverse)
anyway. miss gem gave me shivers. its something ive acquired now. and i can only get chills when im cold.
warm shivers havent been fun. anyway = (
warm adrenaline shivers. sounds like an awesome song idea.
its cold here. but its alright. maybe +-0. have the oil heater. element we call em. its a metal thingie with some oil innit which a heater cable wire thingie heats up. so it doesnt have to heat all the time like if it was a fan. smart. good. doesnt cost that much. i happened to drop it once when vacuuming i think? and one of the plastic legs is iffy.
take care of things. kokoro. the heart of things. ko---ko'ro. to---ky'o. wakashita i dunno how to pronounce.
anyway. got another christmas present. from haikigrandma or some name like that.
as for miley cyrus. dunno if i ever heard party in the usa before.
used to listen to my own record collection. not mr radio since mr radio was mean.
to my frequency. feel like shit frequency + same ol 10 songs = not fun.
why p2 public service radio classical opera felicia elektroniskt in p2 was good.
after id jumped etc.
hey my mom cursed me so i would kill myself. great mom. love her.
got a curse on mr poetry site.
first it was
bra
i replied with
fjollrunkare (fagget wankeuh)
got the response
dö
well. sucks.
this typeface sucks. since hte dots ¨ are like almost not visible. stupid. anyway = (
anyway. i could return to deviantart. except its not all white background and black text.
the default is a particular green shade.
it wasnt for freaks before. it was actually called
deviantart
where art meets application
so there. hey, wonder what koalaelf is up to.
i sucked before. i suck less now. thus things are better. not.
i have a better flow. and i live 1 hour in the future. ok. cool.
and now it says my time is norway. makes sense. maybe.
last year the average temperature between nov and dec was -20.
well. didnt really notice it. just went to the mall once a day if even that yep probably anyway.
today it was -7. so not that bad.
its usually coldest in february.
in march you can tan.
anyway. used to be like that. things change.
it used to be one day with -24. one day a year. anyway.
then you got a halo on the sun. since it snows at that temperature.
ice crystals. neat. it was that some day ago.
someone had photoed em on facebook.
and it was light pillars too.
saw one once, on the bus to söder from tumba.
anyway. i leaned against the train wall, closed eyes.
it was ok. back and forth. cried some on the way there.
cried more on the way home.
someone actually sat near me. evolution. awesome.
hey my spine doesnt fall apart when i have anxiety now.
that sucks before. anyway. should buy actual things from boutiques.
anyway. good idea. bought some things at the seco-FUCK YOU DIDNT GIVE ME MY CDS.
ok. will try again. should go to pet sounds and bengans and find some cd.
i can rip now. yep. this ye olde comp has a cd player. awesome.
cant stand the light though. or the sound.
ive wasted at least 99% of my life. sucks.
thus being a shiva or ganesha or buddha is easy-er at places where they think
those sort of people are good people.
anyway, a buddha at one point in evolution
only needs to eat 1 single grain of rice per day. cool peoples.
what song to find. hmm.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ekZEVeXwek
have you heard ariana grande, tracey?
i hadnt. that song bella sent me. so its large amounts of awesome. anyway. listen! or else! you get the ban hammer! er. no. anyway =(
anyway. its weird. i can drink a lot of water but not much happens. i dont pee a lot.
except, i dont think anything when i pour water from the tap.
so its pretty....er... natural. anyway. vouf! ^_____^
oink! bacon! hiss! elevator!
so. there were people on the commute.
and in town.
miss psychologist said once that i used to go to cafés where there were as few peoples as possible.
dont remember that time. i was sad. like everyone all the time seems to be.
if i you take too much drugs, your soul dies or body or something.
aka groundhog day aka deja vu alllllll the time.
so. dont do drugs. drugs suck.
be a fatty like me instead. its much better.
dont check the mirror smash it and never get a new.
if youre gonna use a scale. theres new scales.
they send an electric current from one leg to another.
and it gives a reading on percentages of
bone
fat
muscle
water
anyway. they dont cost a lot.
so if you wanna be stuck as a number, as a statistic. be my guest. "weigh" yourself.
check to see in the mirror if you rump has gotten bigger since you slept.
if it has, it means youre an asshole.
so dont be an asshole.
like... walk. along the beach. woods. streets. anything.
its good for you. starving yourself is stupid.
since i dont look like popular macho guys.
i really dont care.
or id be a porn star.
and those suck.
oh. right. nothingness.
i can start wars. except theyre all fake. but not to everyone.
all i have to do is listen to sunhiausa enough.
i started the ukraine war. awesome.
except, after a month of playing
nothingness
mr dealer got tired of hearing it.
hmm.
should i listen?
ruin the world?
"what software company do i want to embrace expand extinguish now?"
- billie G
wow. im so cool. im so great. and ive written a lot. and thats awesome.
fight the future? nope. fight the present. fight the past.
"sleeping with the past". where elthon johns sacrifice song is on.
found it at a second hand in the middle of nowhere. parents. etc.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HOqYR-hYqsc
I KISSED A GOY / BIRL
anyway. awesome.
wow. im miserable. at least i can write.
people are just mean on facebook.
thats my world. changes. lots.
if i dont eat sugar for like a week.
i can build muscles real fast.
its called the atkins diet.
heard of it tracey?
how druish lived.
they got quite strong.
could swim across the atlantic. wowzah.
hands quite cold. sucks.
dont do drugs.
you get superpowers.
but youre not really alive.
anyway. i used to be a stone. didnt know that.
i call it desensitized.
so wont forget that murder threat.
wow. poetry. rhyme. excellent.
and a couple.
seeing soccer VM with the guys was boooooooooring.
wow. this songs sucks.
lets listen to fire water burn.
because that brings a good vibe. right.
anyway. im not much gay. im getting there. awesome. ti nivol mi.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pok8H_KF1FA
doja cat. say so.
ashley lawless version is better. hepatica. like the countess.
shes sweet. wanna call her. dont want her to like. die. would suck.
but i have so much despair now. that its not a good idea.
tried to add her on facebook. didnt work.
julia posted like 10 pics of her crying.
while she had me blocked. obviously. so you should spy. makes sense.
everyone has MPD these days. gooooo with the floooooow.
i just have 1 name at a time.
then when ive ruined the name or someone else
or some text or some text from someone else.
then i find something new.
like leeloo. she had lotsa names. so i wanted lotsa names.
i made something memorable.¨
lesse.
pxy seas adamantine morphid ataraxiaabyss phoenixdolphin.
and on it goes. mpd woah. "shadows" delete bella tosaysobehavedonelie.
wow. cant tell between i and l. and big I looks like small eye.
smoking sucks. dont do it. it rots your brainz.
but if your brains are +90% alcohol it wont rot i guess. "det skvalpar".
it will turn to lithium or formaline instead then. or something.
anyway. swedish sucks. cant write it here. but i will.
i change. lots. so i died when i was 39. quite late. but. hey. awesome.
some dude held up the door for me. so its alright.
im apart of the brotherhood now. awesome.
same shit different day.
stephen king said that. yep. he did.
so i can choose between everyone being mean.
or everyone ignoring me. hmm. tough question.
have pants t shirt shirt on.
got a voodoo curse. "cancer". awesome.
i am quite straight. anyway. didnt know that. weird.
miss gem <3 youre cool.
like a mix between sara and me and more. large amounts of awesome.
guldstjärna i taket. .. . .. . . .* . . . .. .. .. .
goldstar in the ceiling. they did that in kindergarten and early states of gradeschool.
we had lots of teachers. all the time. great.
so maybe theresias name was johansson.
and shes a rapper. wouldnt really fit her.
tessa, common name. i guess.
she was albanian. shit.
i heard she used to wait for patients to almost die before resusicating them.
well. nobodys perfect.
"psychopaths dont hear the voice of satan, they hear the voice of god"
oh. was gonna post that as personal quote on miss poetry site.
they deleted my account. didnt even say anything. well. suckage.
im in the poetry collection theyre gonna release before christmas.
so thats major. its like 50 poets or more innit.
will ask miss economy if she can buy me some.
should send one to miss mom.
"i hope youre making the fam proud"
some dude on twitter.
oh. got suspended on twitter from a 2 second though. sucks.
so elon musk whines about CORONA? youre a tad bit late hipster loser.
he pretends like monkeypox wasnt a deal for awhile. asshole.
and that SO NEW tech is coming, the nanocomputers dont exist!
of course not payed opposition.
he is obviously not owned by the saudis. no way.
made a saudi prose-poem. i think i posted it here.
got 2 likes 1 comment. awesome. everyone loves me.
wow. have written lots. like. WHY?
its not poetry quality, not literary quality.
anyway. should post on multiple places.
so if i get delete happy i dont uh.
delete something of value.
its 3 months on facebook 1 year on livejournal sites.
for the deletion to happen.
quite awesome. i have some 1400 bloglings
so no way i would have the energy to delete that much.
anyway. traceys tough. gotta be tough against my demons.
DEleteMONS. mandy. man-die. what some douche monster is calling when i started this blogging thing.
not good.
maybe i should eat something. oh. right. corn flakes. awesome.
the original and best.
real old trademark.
hey.
there was no such thing as the slavetrade.
they had a nuclear war some 100 years ago in africa aka sahara.
so the whiteys who they enslaved saved me. assholes.
its called the titanomachy in the bible
or dead sea scrolls or sumfin.
hmm. 4 dip at once. they call snus dip in american accent.
said miss gem. ill keep your love forever with me.
aka jean grae. awesome.
ive had eating disorders twice actually.
sort of ate next to nothing. for some months.
in 2013-2014 and 2021. yep.
wasnt that bothersome really.
it was really lonely the first time.
the second time i took green tea extract.
made me tired and angry. sucks.
anyway cant eat veggies or greens or orange juice anymore.
its shock full of graphene. sucks.
anyway. had 500 kronor yesterday. 1500 today. so thats nice.
eating food doenst do much to me. not anymore.
if ever.
take care of your teeth. important. or not.
tracey good rolemodel. rent hjärta.
anyway. oh. took lössnus. feel horrible.
shouldnt really chew anything chewy anymore.
since i cant drink coffee anymore.
since it went to my synapses or whatever.
ruined my ears. balans sinnet.
so she for real thought this was jeffs account?
well. sucks.
right foot hurting on left side.
yep. thats me. hypocondriac.
oh. right. mr tatu opened my jacket.
telekinetically. it was like 7 buttons.
and just. magic. weird.
sourcecode. angel numbers. awesome.
should i stalk miss gem?
i dunno. probably bad idea. or good.
i wreck people.
not much you can do about it.
its your darkness.
same amount as light.
½
yin yang.
50 / 50.
no miss poetry site. ok. sucks.
should get that book somehow.
things are somewhat calm.
and ive written a lot.
awesome. or not. you never know.
oh. wasnt banned. the account just disappeared.
cyber demons aka faes. luv em <3
you shouldnt call yourself ak 47 fully automatic.
because then some swedish gang will kill
your daughter with a yugoslavian imported ak-4,
thats swedish and russian and yeah yugoslavian hate.
anyway. kirins alive.
BTW.
my avatar is the same colour as a hindu lotus.
quite awesome. didnt know that. thanxxx.
oh! as i was walking from the deja vu in söder.
it was a sunset solnedgång already.
it was cerise. and. uh. faded to the normal azure.
was pretty. i dont photo anymore and
it was lots of buildings in the way.
it faded in a few mins. anyway. pretty.
"nature did not ask to be photographed"
i figured. so. hey. dont make prettiest.
because if you photo something pretty
and photoshop it
and upload it
then delete it
bad things happen
didnt know.
sorry.
oh. just write all day. how fun.
1 message on facebook. cant wait.
some sicko messaged me. awesome.
wow. got 3 likes on some trump qanon thingie.
awesome. equilant to the 3 cigs ive smoked.
which ill get cancer from.
because muhajeddins love me </3 obviously. wow. tired. havent slept. just anti-rested. should find good song. mood song. no idea. to buy 1 single cd. should do so. if i have faith in myself i have the universe against me. almost. anyway. posting.
