oh, i read some about it on goodreads <3 :) i cant ever remember feeling lonely when i read a book, even if it was in the middle of the night.
it was timely, your comment, though. ya see, you heard about the miami aliens? im gonna post soon about it. so i thought about aliens last night. and it was dripping from the showerhead. not all the time. just for like 15 mins. and i was... scared. it felt lonely at night :( i used to love the night =*( maybe i cant reduce neuroleptics further, because then the monsters would come out at night... i had that before. i was scared of the dark. was 1½ year ago? no, 2½ years ago. and i drank some beer. and that made it worse. like beings in the night. why most sleep then, i understand. its especially prevalent on miss poetry site. no one posts after midnight... a few do, but not many...
"rates of loneliness had already been increasing exponentially for decades"
well, except for those beers. i havent been much lonely. not during the day anyway... (but i self-medicated with chocolate...) now is a new day, full of discoveries :) lesse if i get my legs back. and if i have to live with night terrors :( oh my... i guess ill have to consult a healer. using burnt white salvia made the hauntings worse actually. maybe cuz miss mom did it. it wasnt haunted here at first. it came like 2 days ago, when i reduced neuroleptics. a challenge! ho hum...
but ive almost always been scared of the dark. but those 2½ years ago. was not fun. lots of light and darkness beings and stuff... if only i had bella by my side... oh, i contacted a (1 year) old friend, we chatted some :) shes the sweetest, and so strong, otherwise she couldnt handle me. and almost no one can handle me. ive added like 2000 people on facebook (its only 900 now though): and almost no one can handle me there...
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Date: 2024-01-15 07:25 am (UTC)it was timely, your comment, though. ya see, you heard about the miami aliens? im gonna post soon about it. so i thought about aliens last night. and it was dripping from the showerhead. not all the time. just for like 15 mins. and i was... scared. it felt lonely at night :( i used to love the night =*( maybe i cant reduce neuroleptics further, because then the monsters would come out at night... i had that before. i was scared of the dark. was 1½ year ago? no, 2½ years ago. and i drank some beer. and that made it worse. like beings in the night. why most sleep then, i understand. its especially prevalent on miss poetry site. no one posts after midnight... a few do, but not many...
"rates of loneliness had already been increasing exponentially for decades"
well, except for those beers. i havent been much lonely. not during the day anyway... (but i self-medicated with chocolate...) now is a new day, full of discoveries :) lesse if i get my legs back. and if i have to live with night terrors :( oh my... i guess ill have to consult a healer. using burnt white salvia made the hauntings worse actually. maybe cuz miss mom did it. it wasnt haunted here at first. it came like 2 days ago, when i reduced neuroleptics. a challenge! ho hum...
but ive almost always been scared of the dark. but those 2½ years ago. was not fun. lots of light and darkness beings and stuff... if only i had bella by my side... oh, i contacted a (1 year) old friend, we chatted some :) shes the sweetest, and so strong, otherwise she couldnt handle me. and almost no one can handle me. ive added like 2000 people on facebook (its only 900 now though): and almost no one can handle me there...