if numbers make you happy youll never be happy because numbers never end

and youre bella of course to if you want to. bella is tangible though. shes just a girl. shes around my age 30 or so. shes a reiki healing grandmistress. for generations and generations. i fell in love with her in my teens. because there was a documentary from sicily. and for some few seconds you see this sweetheart, which just walks on mountain, with grass all around, and shes got a bluewhite batik dress on. thats when i fell in love with bella. i dont fall in love anymore. "foolproof, and incapable of error". "jag har aldrig gjort ett fel". because i cant fall in love. if there ever was a first love it was kris. but it wasnt sexual because i hadnt had my awakening yet. i just ran up to her and hugged her. ive seen her in others. she had black hair but she dyed it black. she ran from the royal court in soviet russia in the 70s or 80s. i saw her a few months ago at the local pub. i soooooo wanted to get laid but she had other plans. anyway. bella and julia. theyre the best. and your like one of my sisters. so youre better <3