🐛 agenda 2200 🐛

and cockroaches

will inherit

the world

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my right wing is hurting. can you call it that? i call it that so it makes sense. i dont know the real name.

so i got a new desk and new chair.

it is not perfect.

it is perfect if i did not recieve anxiety.

but i have loads of that.

so its more of a curse.

the grey who gave to me.

i spat at.

so you could say hes false from that moment.

but why get bitter?

i have a really fab large desk and its sturdy and you can move it around.

and a black armchair thats somewhat comfy.

not perfect but hey.

and this armchair hasnt fallen apart yet.

i need to wash more clothes.

can i do it all by hand?

am tired again.

if i smoke a couple of cigs.

THEN i can do housework.

ill try to wash the clothes with the machines

theyve upgraded them

theyre real good quality

i forgot to buy laundry detergent

oh well

still some deterget left in the machines

my laundry time is in 13 hours

a lot could happen until then

sigh

hope im not sleeping then

but theyre understanding until before 8 in the evening

and it depends on which grey is working

which i never know

its less chaotic now

but i get a lot of anxiety

cigs have side effects?

i didnt think of that :(

oh, i get tired if i dont smoke

i didnt think of that.

i tried some working out

i dont know many maneuvers to train your body

since i have damages i need to be careful

at least i can write

i slept with a completely open door

post this on lj instead?

i guess so :(

i just shouldnt make music

when i have FOUR HUNDRED GRAMS

of neuroleptics

per day =(

omg! was just gonna finish up

the new album on soundcloud

so i add the 4 songs

to a playlist

and it says the genre is dream pop!

ogmgomgomgoom!!!!!! ^_____^

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ANTECKNING

har FEMTON ÄGG kvar, kokade 3. inte mycket corn flakes kvar. sen är det salt och olja inte mycket mer att äta. steka ägg i olja? borde lära sig steka ägg. bränd mat innehåller mycket tungmetaller salt.

jag klarar mig utan SKRÄPMAT och utan cigaretter förutom när jag behöver sova tog 1 cigg vid förra vaknandet kunde inte somna sen sov bra. tog 2 fler neuroleptika också som jag missat låg tappat på golvet vinden tagit ner den. så mycket jag inte kommer ihåg :( klarar mig utan likes och kommentarer ett tag. de grå är falska men fick ju bord+stol så är något även om de inte funkar för mig va fin gest <3

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ok posting this here so i dont just post on livejournal. maybe tracey would remove me from dreamwidth if i only post on livejournal. i got that fear yesterday = * (

anyway. a new kåseri poem mix <3

MY FIRST 3 WORDS

NÄPO — nyponsoppa — rosehip soup — works well against pain, also why thyme is my favorite spice. i drank this when i was a whee bit laddy.

KÄPO — ketchup, my second love. what is there to say? all tastes in it, multidimensional. tastes like baby poop i guess.

SÄPO — one of my sisters under the name of "sara". she liked to sit on her potty and breath in poop fumes and draw amanita all day long. when dad imported a nintendo from america 1 year before i was born, she got so entranced by mario turning strong from a mushroom, that she took a bite from a fly agaric when she and mom were in the woods. she flew far away into wonderland then.
like all my sisters (and brothers) ive
barely seen her ever,
barely heard her speak,
barely spoken to her,
and then we lived under
the same household
for over 2 decades.