(no subject)

the story of 3 beers and an angel

i remember drinking 3 beers
in my loneliness at night
i dont drink beer
so that was
too much for me
anyway
i do some things on the computer
write some
edit my poetry homepage
do some things
then i get anxiety
and lay to rest away the pain
all of a sudden i hear
a knock on the window
it is a person floating there
in gold armour
surprised i cant do
anything but open it
it is archangel michael
he introduces himself
then he raises his sword towards me
and says
DID IT GET BETTER NOW TOMAS
harsh words from an angel
but i get mostly those
this site is a free haven though
even if some are mean and false
but i think of those words often
in what i do
when i mess up
did it get better
i dont know
i mostly look on
the bright side of life
even nightmares
i dont wake sweaty from
i find them inspiring
september cohen said once to me though
YOU HAVE MADE A DIFFERENCE
so thats all that matters
like one of the guys
which did a gangbang
he said
IF YOU AFFECT ONE
PERSON ITS WORTH IT
so i hope i affect you
reader
with this
in however way
write about the gods
write about the angels
write about the greys
write about the birds
write about the fairies
write about the dryads
write about the trolls
they are for real

YOU FUCK LIKE A PORNSTAR

quote from bella
when the first time
we did it for hours
and hours improvising
the first thing she said was
STRANGLE ME
we took opium
it was srange
and so amazing
jag älskar dig bella <3
she was my second ever in bed
and my last
until maggie the
rihanna lookalike
some month ago
its a 2 year anniversary
that bella broke up with me
i broke her heart completely
id done it so many times before
and id left her so many times
but i had no one else nothing else
then i took cocaine and became sofia
now i dont know what or who i am
without her
without bella
i am LGBTTQ
i am baphomet
i gave birth to
julias and is baby
just how it works
in this strange world
i know this isnt a
masterpiece of writing
but i love bella so much
miss romania said
that i was the greatest
lovestory ever made
so i will keep writing
keep writing about bella
bella and i
tomas sofia and bella akari

(no subject)

#yesfap

so i was on twitter for awhile
before the banishment by elon musk
and i got recommended #nofap
it worked pretty well for awhile
then i just didnt understand
why i was so unhappy
so i fapped
i hadnt fapped for
a week or more
maybe 3
maybe for people with lots
of testosterone it works
for people who meet
a lot of people
and get their
rocks off that way
but im just a weak geek
i need to fap
its over quickly
i dont write 10-15
hour eroticas anymore
so whatever you do
fap everyday
do it whenever
if theres a hot chick
or dude you saw
go into the
nearest bathroom
and fap
its good for you
and its ok

(no subject)

julia the free spirit. aiart.

a bird tweetered to me again

look at the weather its beautiful
i love all of earths creatures
and i was at my darkest
as usual
before it was the cats who rescued me
before it was myself that rescued me
now i depend on others
im apart of the psychiatric system
so a lot of people work on me
both to make me happy and sad
so i will learn about life and living
but birds are just truth
cats are just truth
and bella is just truth
and justice

(no subject)

didnt really fulfill all text requests. is she trying to cut off her hair? #aiart #nightcafestudio does look like bella somewhat so hey. and she does look that soury when sour, also when happy, but if you look closely, her lips look like a heart, when shes happy.......



i am hurting. more and more. i need to go for a walk each day. or go to town. but my feet get so cold. but i cant have it like this. "jag kan inte ha det så här".