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hey! so a new day. finally. it wasnt that bad with the anxiety. at first. for the first. oh right. poem!

day

1) bitchute. watched dollar vigilantes video for 5 mins, got bored. read 3/4 of the comments, which were a lot. several insightful posts about enlightenment, and an interesting video link.
2) runescape. fought demons with a 2handed runic crossbow (i just leveled to 50 yesterday), leveled up some.
3) mirage. fought dmc first with a bunch of guys, then bloat, then we lost to the ice queen.
4) nothingness. i got carpal tunnel from all that holding the attack button in mirage. but for 2 hours, i had nearly no thoughts or sensations at all.
5) cannons. that chill band. with a nice playlist. this threw me over the edge.
6) took my night meds, now the fun started :( after about an hour i had thoughts left and right, the strangest thoughts from 10-20-30 years popping up.
7) fell asleep maybe 11 o clock. dreamt lots until 9 o clock.

(no subject)

every day is full of new challenges
different emotions taking over
you just never know
you never know

(no subject)

hey
i cried today
an hour ago
if i dont cry
every day
something is wrong
try that too tracey
let go of some
steam often
i guess you
have a lot inside
you have a lot inside
a complicated girl 🖤
hug chris and
just let it go
at night or
morning or whatever
it heals better
than anything else
i promise
just cry
in the shelter
of someone
even with
the healer
i promise
it gets better
like my mom
said once

(no subject)

the struggle itself

is enough to fill

a mans heart

(no subject)

bellas last words

forget me tomas
you dont owe
me anything
its over now