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hi miss T and mr scribe. just had a coffee for the first time today. so ill have some hopeful energy. been resting for days :( <3

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telling us to follow feelings

is like telling us to follow "people"

people say different things, so do instinct.

our emotions are at war...

each instinct if you ask it

will claim to be gratified

at the expense of the rest

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hi mr scribe and miss T. ok. dip is still here and im not much nauseus. but i didnt take a big one. i remember how it was at the 3rd last place. id take 3 dips and my eyes would water something incredably. was still quite useless. felt the same afterwards. drugs just dont work on me lol. except for that saffron fling, that was something. hey, at least i dont smoke....

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hi mr scribe and miss T <3 im gonna ask miss economy to buy ONE OF EACH chocolate bar on the low price chain LIDL. it might be suicide, but i havent eaten chocolate for maybe 1-2 months. i need it now. i hope its for the better :( <3

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hey. my left arm isnt hurting anymore. the cold weathers doing me good. then i healed, when i was sleeping. today was real cold. closed both airing windows. i shivered some but made it stop. but my comatozed part of my body, was hotly warm. strange that. without anxiety i could manage anything, which i did 2013-2914 :( then my dad died and it was all chaos....

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Julia is my jungle
1000 thoughts per second
with a brain so incredible
in worlds beyond the world
the calm spreads like
a resting lion
empty when she's angry
is she beautiful
my julia
my julia...

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But we, who are neither Jesuits, nor democrats, nor even sufficiently Germans, we GOOD EUROPEANS, and free, VERY free spirits—we have it still, all the distress of spirit and all the tension of its bow! And perhaps also the arrow, the duty, and, who knows? THE GOAL TO AIM AT....

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i wish i could
rest more easily
like a year ago
but then
things
happened
hey
i was gonna
write a bible
got too healthy
sofia disappeared
its so lonely in space, cyber-space.....
whole lots of 0s and just as many 1s