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my life has
been pathetic
i know of some who get full
concious awareness when theyre 2-5 years old
not me
it was until the 20s
almost 30s
then i was bullied 8 years
so not much to look forward to
then i wrote for 4 whole years
more and more crazy
then i had 40 notepad windows open
then i had anxiety for 8 hours
often that im so tired of talking about
eventhough i dont know if theres
a single poem about the phenomenon
then the patheticness continued
then 3 years, between 2013 and 2015
i was alive
worked 4 part time jobs
then i jumped
spent half a year in the hospital
not doing much more than listening to
classical music since it was
the only channel with unique songlist
now i jumped yet again
and lying in bed you cant do a lot
now im praying and looking at the sky
and got inspired to write this <3 :)