LA FAMILIA (book)
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vaaok. since i got nothing to do. cant even stream music. i figured i should translate my poems. so this is a whole book. not that many poems. but hey. hope you enjoy tracey :) many are newly translated to english, without google translate. n-joy... <3
CURT
he lived like a mystery
and died like a mystery
.
SARA
everything is about you
everything has always
been about you
II
you dont laugh at my jokes
and i dont laugh at yours
,
STARFALL
2 minutes
before midnight
i stepped outside
and lit a cigarette
prayed to the moon
and then
a star fell
yes
yes
then idas third
baby was born
23/24 october
a perfect libra
scorpio cusp
.
HI I AM EMMA
the gentle steps
of a leaf
crossing the street
the sounds
of an oldskool
mobile phone
the feeling of my
winter body thawing
in the spring sun
the urge for my heart
to feel something again
for someone
somewhere
again
please
i need it
i cry now
so my heart is alive
for the very first time
but i dont feel love
only sadness
happy sadness
maybe thats
what its like
to grow old
to miss things
people
happenings
places
a joyful remembrance
there is no hate
there is no indifference
there is only
love
for everything
everyone
everywhere
hi
my name is emma
emma johansson
im mostly sad
i can make people happy
but its only a
defence mechanism
i prefer being by myself
emma means home
but also universe
the universe is my home
my home is my universe
i like it here
hope you sneak
by sometime
feel my world
i like it anyway
hope you do too
.
I AM CAT YES I AM
things would explain themselves better
if i said i was a cat =^_^=
its now 5 o clock and i just ate dinner
before, since noon, id been
dozing off to space ambient
i dont know if it was
apart of the playlist
but all a sudden there
was like a 5 min ad
for this tourist
place which had
its own synthetic
ocean and coral reef
biosphere...
.
BFF AGAIN
congratulations
kristian
you were born 1 month before me
and was before me in mental growth
you read fantasy books
when i read photo
and science magazines
you were my best friend
from about six years old
until sixth grade
we shifted away fron eachother
and i realized recently
i turned into your brothers
but you didnt
heard on slashdot
that you were a
data security expect
so you could save me
from all the hacking
i get online and
on my computer
but you cant always
get what you want
and i think that
you hate me
do you think
of me sometimes?
i was afraid to meet you
in the paranoia before
on your facebook page
you look pumped up
you practiced
swimming before
while i ate just
more and more
you liked my family
and your family
was what it was
2 brothers that were
professional boxers
and a blonde
little sister
this is to you anyway
BFF
best friends forever
somehow
out there
kristian jan sörensen
you were everything to me
when there wasnt much about me
i developed later
but i have made a lot of
art music poetry
i have made my
dent on the world
and i am sure
you do wonders every day
in the digital sphere
and dream about those
fantasy books you
probably still read
signed
your friend
your best friend
tomas emma johansson
.
DEAR PARENTS
i wish you hadnt
drunk and
worked
so much
but it
doesnt matter
i forgive you
your son, tomas
HEYOKA
hi
i am heyoka
i can control the wind
which is something
i do not directly understand
it was the first
superpower
i found out about
so my anti form is scorpio
but my friends are libra and
sagitarius and aries and gemini
everyone is
everything
to some degree
i am neutral/good
but it sometimes changes quickly
to chaotic/good then it gets worse
and worse like a natural disaster
i can control it myself
i dont have a thousand
thoughts in my head
most of the time nothing
so i am the first element
shuddha prajnyana
my children are titandragons
i do not what they will grow up
on average i do
they are called kintukoroi
kintsugi means healing with gold
Bella & Tessan
# Born 2020-02~01-03 (2020-02-02 Aquarius) Gabriella ''Babybel'' Kirin Irazsche (Bellas daughter) [party animal, reiki healer] (conceived 2019-11-02~04) {strong, talkative sometimes, good listener} Libra Titandragon (brown curly hair) a kirin is a mythological animal mix between dragon dog and horse (Concieved 27 february 2019)
# Born 2019-09~13-15 (Virgo) Rhiannon ''Habibi'' Angelino Johansson (Tessans son) [drug dealer, bets on horses] (concieved 2019-06-14~16) {Wise beautiful calm} Cancer Titandragon (red hår) (horse, bird) (Libra) (Concieved 27 february 2019)
* Julia. Donät remember the name. It was German and unisex. Don't know more.
Others.
* Don't know
.
MY CHILDRENS FIRST WORDS
Tomas Sofia: I'm sorry i think
badly about you,
even if it's only seldomly,
I don't want to do it.
But it happens,
like when I have despair.
Rhiannon and Kirin:
It's OK, we've been through a lot.
And just because something bad happens to us,
it doesn't have to be your fault.
It doesn't have to be your fault.
.
PARENT
hi
i have 2 kids
rhiannon and kirin
with bella and tessan
sibel has 2 kids
who have red hair
(saffron and
saffrina i call them)
the boy looks like me
just sadder
and the girl looks
just like sara
both parents
have black hair
idas first 2 kids
have red hair
both parents
have black
anyway,
i havent thought
much of them lately
so figured i should stir
up the ether some
i have more
kids than this
hey...
10, as the soothsayer said
.
RHIANNONKIRINEUF
whats the difference between
truth and lies?
i dont know
i dont know
because i am not a liar
beyond dualism
is scientific frequency
when 1 thing can negate another
but they are still 110% true
hindu gods are either
venus blue for creativity
or hawking radiation black
for destructivity
but they are not
demons or angels
they are quantum physics
they are plasma 3 in 1
liquid gas materia
like rhiannon
and kirin and neuf
the trinity
forever
for always
for all time
just us 3
titandragons
with the best cat friend
it is great to love
it is greater
to have
been
loved
by a cat
.
TESSAN YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE
there are
broken people
out there
some of them
break other
people
but they break
themselves
the most
because they
got broken
long ago
and they use
any drug
to forget
but it still
doesnt pass
these are the
worst so called
people in the world
i know
im one of them
tessan is one of them
a lot of people are one of them
but i know
tessan
is the one
so it doesnt
matter
.
TRICK
you can fool everyone
little weak happy karin
except rami
except sara
except bella
except tessan
except tomas
except sofia
you can fool
everyone
except us
.
so i tried to kill myself again
has been 8 years
since the last time
but ive thought about suicide
since i was 11 years old
when i started to get bullied
when dad wanted to teach
me a lesson in mathematics
anyway
what does that mean?
both my bloodsister
that i know the most
and my dad
drank and drink a lot
my mom is a dumb blonde
without the big tits
and im proud of her for that
shes completely unphased by politics
and im proud of her for that
so i will live a long time
my dad lived until he
was 66/67 years
and i guess sara
will live long
hey
both charles bukowski
and timothy leary
died in their 70s
i guess my mom meant
i am a water being
like her
shes a flower hippie
sara likes walking a lot
and biking a lot
just like her guy
which shes just
broke up with
i think?
they had been togethter
so tight-knit
since 1997
and strangely enough
at the housing
and also several years earlier
theres been a guy whos the same sign
as sara and fredrik
GEMINI
i just figured it out
from his personality
some probably see
him as stupid
since hes latino
with an accent
and he always
thinks things
through
i remember telling sara a few times
REMEMBER WHEN... so and so
with a big smile on my face
she goes quiet
remininscing
her vision turning
darker and darker
and then a few secs later
she says in a
concentrated tone
NO I DONT
no matter what
i love you sara
i love the
entire world
the bright side
of borderline
CURT
he lived like a mystery
and died like a mystery
.
SARA
everything is about you
everything has always
been about you
II
you dont laugh at my jokes
and i dont laugh at yours
,
STARFALL
2 minutes
before midnight
i stepped outside
and lit a cigarette
prayed to the moon
and then
a star fell
yes
yes
then idas third
baby was born
23/24 october
a perfect libra
scorpio cusp
.
HI I AM EMMA
the gentle steps
of a leaf
crossing the street
the sounds
of an oldskool
mobile phone
the feeling of my
winter body thawing
in the spring sun
the urge for my heart
to feel something again
for someone
somewhere
again
please
i need it
i cry now
so my heart is alive
for the very first time
but i dont feel love
only sadness
happy sadness
maybe thats
what its like
to grow old
to miss things
people
happenings
places
a joyful remembrance
there is no hate
there is no indifference
there is only
love
for everything
everyone
everywhere
hi
my name is emma
emma johansson
im mostly sad
i can make people happy
but its only a
defence mechanism
i prefer being by myself
emma means home
but also universe
the universe is my home
my home is my universe
i like it here
hope you sneak
by sometime
feel my world
i like it anyway
hope you do too
.
I AM CAT YES I AM
things would explain themselves better
if i said i was a cat =^_^=
its now 5 o clock and i just ate dinner
before, since noon, id been
dozing off to space ambient
i dont know if it was
apart of the playlist
but all a sudden there
was like a 5 min ad
for this tourist
place which had
its own synthetic
ocean and coral reef
biosphere...
.
BFF AGAIN
congratulations
kristian
you were born 1 month before me
and was before me in mental growth
you read fantasy books
when i read photo
and science magazines
you were my best friend
from about six years old
until sixth grade
we shifted away fron eachother
and i realized recently
i turned into your brothers
but you didnt
heard on slashdot
that you were a
data security expect
so you could save me
from all the hacking
i get online and
on my computer
but you cant always
get what you want
and i think that
you hate me
do you think
of me sometimes?
i was afraid to meet you
in the paranoia before
on your facebook page
you look pumped up
you practiced
swimming before
while i ate just
more and more
you liked my family
and your family
was what it was
2 brothers that were
professional boxers
and a blonde
little sister
this is to you anyway
BFF
best friends forever
somehow
out there
kristian jan sörensen
you were everything to me
when there wasnt much about me
i developed later
but i have made a lot of
art music poetry
i have made my
dent on the world
and i am sure
you do wonders every day
in the digital sphere
and dream about those
fantasy books you
probably still read
signed
your friend
your best friend
tomas emma johansson
.
DEAR PARENTS
i wish you hadnt
drunk and
worked
so much
but it
doesnt matter
i forgive you
your son, tomas
HEYOKA
hi
i am heyoka
i can control the wind
which is something
i do not directly understand
it was the first
superpower
i found out about
so my anti form is scorpio
but my friends are libra and
sagitarius and aries and gemini
everyone is
everything
to some degree
i am neutral/good
but it sometimes changes quickly
to chaotic/good then it gets worse
and worse like a natural disaster
i can control it myself
i dont have a thousand
thoughts in my head
most of the time nothing
so i am the first element
shuddha prajnyana
my children are titandragons
i do not what they will grow up
on average i do
they are called kintukoroi
kintsugi means healing with gold
Bella & Tessan
# Born 2020-02~01-03 (2020-02-02 Aquarius) Gabriella ''Babybel'' Kirin Irazsche (Bellas daughter) [party animal, reiki healer] (conceived 2019-11-02~04) {strong, talkative sometimes, good listener} Libra Titandragon (brown curly hair) a kirin is a mythological animal mix between dragon dog and horse (Concieved 27 february 2019)
# Born 2019-09~13-15 (Virgo) Rhiannon ''Habibi'' Angelino Johansson (Tessans son) [drug dealer, bets on horses] (concieved 2019-06-14~16) {Wise beautiful calm} Cancer Titandragon (red hår) (horse, bird) (Libra) (Concieved 27 february 2019)
* Julia. Donät remember the name. It was German and unisex. Don't know more.
Others.
* Don't know
.
MY CHILDRENS FIRST WORDS
Tomas Sofia: I'm sorry i think
badly about you,
even if it's only seldomly,
I don't want to do it.
But it happens,
like when I have despair.
Rhiannon and Kirin:
It's OK, we've been through a lot.
And just because something bad happens to us,
it doesn't have to be your fault.
It doesn't have to be your fault.
.
PARENT
hi
i have 2 kids
rhiannon and kirin
with bella and tessan
sibel has 2 kids
who have red hair
(saffron and
saffrina i call them)
the boy looks like me
just sadder
and the girl looks
just like sara
both parents
have black hair
idas first 2 kids
have red hair
both parents
have black
anyway,
i havent thought
much of them lately
so figured i should stir
up the ether some
i have more
kids than this
hey...
10, as the soothsayer said
.
RHIANNONKIRINEUF
whats the difference between
truth and lies?
i dont know
i dont know
because i am not a liar
beyond dualism
is scientific frequency
when 1 thing can negate another
but they are still 110% true
hindu gods are either
venus blue for creativity
or hawking radiation black
for destructivity
but they are not
demons or angels
they are quantum physics
they are plasma 3 in 1
liquid gas materia
like rhiannon
and kirin and neuf
the trinity
forever
for always
for all time
just us 3
titandragons
with the best cat friend
it is great to love
it is greater
to have
been
loved
by a cat
.
TESSAN YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE
there are
broken people
out there
some of them
break other
people
but they break
themselves
the most
because they
got broken
long ago
and they use
any drug
to forget
but it still
doesnt pass
these are the
worst so called
people in the world
i know
im one of them
tessan is one of them
a lot of people are one of them
but i know
tessan
is the one
so it doesnt
matter
.
TRICK
you can fool everyone
little weak happy karin
except rami
except sara
except bella
except tessan
except tomas
except sofia
you can fool
everyone
except us
.
so i tried to kill myself again
has been 8 years
since the last time
but ive thought about suicide
since i was 11 years old
when i started to get bullied
when dad wanted to teach
me a lesson in mathematics
anyway
what does that mean?
both my bloodsister
that i know the most
and my dad
drank and drink a lot
my mom is a dumb blonde
without the big tits
and im proud of her for that
shes completely unphased by politics
and im proud of her for that
so i will live a long time
my dad lived until he
was 66/67 years
and i guess sara
will live long
hey
both charles bukowski
and timothy leary
died in their 70s
i guess my mom meant
i am a water being
like her
shes a flower hippie
sara likes walking a lot
and biking a lot
just like her guy
which shes just
broke up with
i think?
they had been togethter
so tight-knit
since 1997
and strangely enough
at the housing
and also several years earlier
theres been a guy whos the same sign
as sara and fredrik
GEMINI
i just figured it out
from his personality
some probably see
him as stupid
since hes latino
with an accent
and he always
thinks things
through
i remember telling sara a few times
REMEMBER WHEN... so and so
with a big smile on my face
she goes quiet
remininscing
her vision turning
darker and darker
and then a few secs later
she says in a
concentrated tone
NO I DONT
no matter what
i love you sara
i love the
entire world
the bright side
of borderline
