hey a new opinion piece thingie, it is sofia talking ^___^ <3

originally written in swedish just now <3 oxå! o ox xo xox oxo ^______^ the swedish version is as usual on livejournal.....

if you could live your life again

what would you do differently?

i would say like maria

to jessica

"we do it together"

i love you jessica

sorry i forgot you

because you didn't

things that have happened have happened

I have forgiven a lot

at its worst

are men rapists

at its worst

are women

cold blooded

psychopaths

it does not mean

that one should give

up humanity

everyone has a heart

so treat everyone

as best you can

not everyone can respect one

it's just the way it is

concentrate on those who need you

still trying to find new friends

you meet people regardless of what you do

maybe just someone who wants a cigarette

or a friend you invite to coffee

I now believe in good deeds

it doesn't have to come directly from the heart

if someone is in a vulnerable situation

and you help them

make it better for them

even if only

is for a moment

then it's worth it

think about yourself

in your darkest moments

who was there for you?

you never really know

how someone will interpret

what you think

how you speak

how you move

but you can anyway

guess

try to understand

and take care of

as well as possible

// sofia the sailor

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if i didnt have bad luck

id have no luck at all

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seriously.

something must be wrong with my brain.

and i know no one ever

will help me in any way whatsoever.

this is the pain of the owl.

i really have nothing to live for.

since you left me.

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feel like shit
don't know exactly what I
must do to make it better
after a while no food works
no drugs
no women
you are just as lonely
and yet abandoned
as it was sung a
once upon a time
"sometimes i feel like
a motherless child"
yes
i feel homeless
rootless
just forget everything
make it stop
only
make it all stop
but it doesn't end so quickly
I have a very strong heart chakra
and root chakra and life chakra and…
I'm strong
but not anymore
have gone to the hairdresser 3 times
each time I heard that it does not
existed for some time
sometimes i give up easily
sometimes not
sometimes I can't stand anything
just lie in bed
and hope you don't have too many migraines
that you can still listen to music
and lay there
8 hours per day
as if time stood still
except pounders who
comes once an hour
and begging for lots of bullshit
I'm naive I know
I'm half blonde
although everyone believes
that I'm a redhead
my mother was rat gray actually
you know, mostly gray and little
highlights with blonde
and completely straightforward
later she got brown hair
just like that
it was when she
met my dad
they loved each other
in its own special way
missing dad now
it's almost gone
8 years since he died
happened in everything before
now I think more
perhaps
must get in me
enough
with protein
brb will cook
meat sauce from scratch
like a mafia family!
^_______^
take care <3

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heeey <3 !!!! miss poetry site is working.

and my mind and body is working.

i was gonna get my blues injection today.

didnt know. on the internet time doesnt

really exist. i mean youre online and

thats it and send messages to and fro

and you reply to it whenever youre

in the mood. hey i got a postcard from

miss mom with 2 photos too shes a sweetheart.

she loves art. she used to go to museums

and art gallerys a lot in her 20s.

was some partying there but i dont

blame her for anything. shes my mother.

she made me. and so did sara and shes

cool <3 hon skapade något vackert.

hon skapade mig <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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hey baelae was a trip or i as a trip to her lol

she said like "you replied to my

messages BEFORE id sent them!"

miss romania said similar

haha, im a trip ^_____^

awesomeness!

jag är en tachyon <3

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ok this is cocksucking motherfucking 32h0t320th8qwf7GF)ug/r")gufhoiuwth

i have a too high dose of neuroleptics. im getting psychotic constantly. except if i have any emotion, i get anxiety. this will be complete hell. no way out. anxiety 24/7. and tracey doesnt give a fuck. im just wankmaterial to her. horrible mother.

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this toothache is killing me. i just slept a bunch of hours. and now the option isnt really anything except sleeping more. "här tror ingen på behandlingen" :(