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Sep. 11th, 2022 12:02 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaahey. my ikea desktop will soon fall apart. the fabric the screws hold up is wood. its my own fault. after that, using computers at all will be complicated. no one really treats you bad its just perspective.
i dont know how i will manage in real life but somehow i should. i know of one library that has an armchair but its only one and usually taken. you can be addicted to anything really. before i used the excuse i wanted to talk to my ex eventhough she had broken up with me already.
as mentioned i have heard 2 perspectives on how i was born into this reincarnation if such exists. i do not know the end yet and i cannot say i will.
its easy to fuck up its more difficult to care.
im a writer though so i can write on paper. when i cant write on that.........
well. i should manage. everything is perspective etc.
i dont think suicide works the way we think. if earth is truly a prison planet you cant escape prison by suicide. that would obviously be too easy. everything is perspective though so if god says he will save you you might be saved. you will still be a slave though unless you make your own rules. if you enjoy being a demon then hell is no problem youve been there one way or the other already.
gundaberunda is an ancient protector symbol. for me at least good is as good as bad is bad. it is not the ultimate as mentioned scientific frequency is higher. there is good karma and bad karma. they both rise depending on words actions thought emotions your family history etc designed by a committee. if you clear your bad karma you can only acquire good karma. that is not to say that life wont be challenging but you know you will come to a better place after you die. in your heart.
i should really throw away this laptop eventhough i bought it some weeks ago. i could say im fighting the power but if i have sinned on the reptiles frequency i will get it back in equal amounts.
hey youre still allowed to use computers for 30 mins in rättspsyk.
i should go to town and be a stupid fucking drunk asshole. it wont be difficult. or it will. as i am protected from ultimate good and ultimate bad.
hey how ironic its election day here. so depending on how i act from this day if there isnt a re-election or whatever. YEAH. fun. its rhiannons birthday. would be a perfect day to die right? so he can "handle things on his own"?
my sis said via telepathy or whatever that her worst fear is me getting put in prison. i guess she has a heart. i cussed her out once in real life and she went out the door with her sambo. maybe thats when they got their own apartment.
i could say the ultimate truth is told by my mom. "du kanske tolkade det så". "maybe you interpreted it that way".
to "teach him a lesson" that its "easy to kill people with a phone"?
"but then again it was always the wicked who knew in advance"
im a gamer and an artist. thats it. i found my roots again. but then i stopped with art. etc etc etc.
hey ive said so much so it doesnt matter. in real life people ravage me. they did that to my dad but he was saved by my mom. and he saved her. so they are equally good.
anyway i get what i deserve. no phones. its not good for me.
i suppose not liking or not being liked by phones is related to the distance. earth to sky. has a long radius.
i had art music poetry book projects before. that is gone i got what i wanted and it wasnt special. her sis said i should delete all art about her so it was the usual story. my ex is a fraud and thats it.
the police the devils advocate is afraid of me gang members arent.
one middle eastern mafia boss said that i "control the inside" and he "controls the outside". but you never know anything can be a lie. i did not judge him nor got his name. it could be isak but then again there was some dude who called himself issa so you never know.
there was a joke by a complete doofus in lägre grade school.
"säg isak min bror på engelska"
omg. so embarassing. he must have turned into a charming lad.
i told some psychiatrist that i would report him. then when the meeting was over i asked how his people ruined the world. he said "nothing" then via telepathy "the prison system". i also said i wanted to "work for SRV" and did the amazing joke no one laughed at "we come to serve".
since the greys speak complicated kreol it summoned someone who DID work at SRV and they do "come to serve". he was a blue flyer, though obviously he could not say so only "det kallas bara flygare".
this was when i had fucked up my hearing so bad most of the words i got to me were....... well....... "bög". it means female diety originally.
anyway. i guess i have stories to tell. i did not know that. i just wrote.
its fun to write and typewriters dont work greatly and i dont know where to store my written works.
as the akashic library is true it is still saved.
though typewriters. etc. i have mastered writing. there is beyond this but it does not matter.
you can write in many ways. you can edit in many ways. you can see in many ways.
i am this way online but real life is troubling.
"be who you are and do what you want because those who matter dont mind and those who mind dont matter".
dont worry be happy.
as mentioned nirvana takes 10 to the power of 40 billion or somesuch eternities. that is a long time.
you can still eat the apple of knowledge because perfection bores you then you are back at the beginning.
if you only use 1 word all the time correctly without it being deleted you might save that for a rebirth.
you should choose this by yourself and let no one tell you otherwise. you will get challenges.
but do not give up.
hey. ive always wanted to eat that 250 kr hamburger at grand hotel. will be fun.
keep on rocking in the free world.
i never lack i just transition.
and if i fail.
i dont know how i will manage in real life but somehow i should. i know of one library that has an armchair but its only one and usually taken. you can be addicted to anything really. before i used the excuse i wanted to talk to my ex eventhough she had broken up with me already.
as mentioned i have heard 2 perspectives on how i was born into this reincarnation if such exists. i do not know the end yet and i cannot say i will.
its easy to fuck up its more difficult to care.
im a writer though so i can write on paper. when i cant write on that.........
well. i should manage. everything is perspective etc.
i dont think suicide works the way we think. if earth is truly a prison planet you cant escape prison by suicide. that would obviously be too easy. everything is perspective though so if god says he will save you you might be saved. you will still be a slave though unless you make your own rules. if you enjoy being a demon then hell is no problem youve been there one way or the other already.
gundaberunda is an ancient protector symbol. for me at least good is as good as bad is bad. it is not the ultimate as mentioned scientific frequency is higher. there is good karma and bad karma. they both rise depending on words actions thought emotions your family history etc designed by a committee. if you clear your bad karma you can only acquire good karma. that is not to say that life wont be challenging but you know you will come to a better place after you die. in your heart.
i should really throw away this laptop eventhough i bought it some weeks ago. i could say im fighting the power but if i have sinned on the reptiles frequency i will get it back in equal amounts.
hey youre still allowed to use computers for 30 mins in rättspsyk.
i should go to town and be a stupid fucking drunk asshole. it wont be difficult. or it will. as i am protected from ultimate good and ultimate bad.
hey how ironic its election day here. so depending on how i act from this day if there isnt a re-election or whatever. YEAH. fun. its rhiannons birthday. would be a perfect day to die right? so he can "handle things on his own"?
my sis said via telepathy or whatever that her worst fear is me getting put in prison. i guess she has a heart. i cussed her out once in real life and she went out the door with her sambo. maybe thats when they got their own apartment.
i could say the ultimate truth is told by my mom. "du kanske tolkade det så". "maybe you interpreted it that way".
to "teach him a lesson" that its "easy to kill people with a phone"?
"but then again it was always the wicked who knew in advance"
im a gamer and an artist. thats it. i found my roots again. but then i stopped with art. etc etc etc.
hey ive said so much so it doesnt matter. in real life people ravage me. they did that to my dad but he was saved by my mom. and he saved her. so they are equally good.
anyway i get what i deserve. no phones. its not good for me.
i suppose not liking or not being liked by phones is related to the distance. earth to sky. has a long radius.
i had art music poetry book projects before. that is gone i got what i wanted and it wasnt special. her sis said i should delete all art about her so it was the usual story. my ex is a fraud and thats it.
the police the devils advocate is afraid of me gang members arent.
one middle eastern mafia boss said that i "control the inside" and he "controls the outside". but you never know anything can be a lie. i did not judge him nor got his name. it could be isak but then again there was some dude who called himself issa so you never know.
there was a joke by a complete doofus in lägre grade school.
"säg isak min bror på engelska"
omg. so embarassing. he must have turned into a charming lad.
i told some psychiatrist that i would report him. then when the meeting was over i asked how his people ruined the world. he said "nothing" then via telepathy "the prison system". i also said i wanted to "work for SRV" and did the amazing joke no one laughed at "we come to serve".
since the greys speak complicated kreol it summoned someone who DID work at SRV and they do "come to serve". he was a blue flyer, though obviously he could not say so only "det kallas bara flygare".
this was when i had fucked up my hearing so bad most of the words i got to me were....... well....... "bög". it means female diety originally.
anyway. i guess i have stories to tell. i did not know that. i just wrote.
its fun to write and typewriters dont work greatly and i dont know where to store my written works.
as the akashic library is true it is still saved.
though typewriters. etc. i have mastered writing. there is beyond this but it does not matter.
you can write in many ways. you can edit in many ways. you can see in many ways.
i am this way online but real life is troubling.
"be who you are and do what you want because those who matter dont mind and those who mind dont matter".
dont worry be happy.
as mentioned nirvana takes 10 to the power of 40 billion or somesuch eternities. that is a long time.
you can still eat the apple of knowledge because perfection bores you then you are back at the beginning.
if you only use 1 word all the time correctly without it being deleted you might save that for a rebirth.
you should choose this by yourself and let no one tell you otherwise. you will get challenges.
but do not give up.
hey. ive always wanted to eat that 250 kr hamburger at grand hotel. will be fun.
keep on rocking in the free world.
i never lack i just transition.
and if i fail.
