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so. now i cant handle dip at all. i dont really know the specifics. and theres no point in smoking since it doesnt make me lucky anymore.

i dont miss bella. because im not like that. once i made homemade gin because the SHIT i bought was "natural aromas" and ECOLOGICAL ETHANOL so i just bumped some whatever the spicey nuts are called innit and waited some hours.

then, then i couldnt live without bella.

and just because youre a whore it doesnt mean you sleep with whoever. its not like that.

beggars cant be choosers? meow~

no idea what to do now. theres really nothing left of me. i wrote that lots when i was with bella. but now. theres just no hope. no one i talk to really wants to talk to me.

oh. fun. so i went to town in shirt and gimppants. i mean, if i use a dress no woman even looks my direction. and guys ignore me like they always do.

then some complete nutcases are like "can we send you back to prison"?????? WTF???????

they were at least the womansfolk strung out of her mind. just so weird. wtf.

so i dont use a jacket which doesnt heat me anyway.

so. getting attention isnt always good. chelsea mentioned that.

hey!