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[vaa]

the gentle steps
of a leaf
crossing the street

the sounds
of an oldskool
mobile phone

the feeling of my
winter body thawing
in the spring sun

the urge for my heart
to feel something again

for someone
somewhere
again
please
i need it

i cry now
so my heart is alive
for the very first time

but i dont feel love
only sadness
happy sadness

maybe thats
what its like
to grow old
to miss things
people
happenings
places

a joyful remembrance
there is no hate
there is no indifference
there is only
love
for everything
everyone
everywhere

hi
my name is emma
emma johansson
im mostly sad
i can make people happy
but its only a
defence mechanism

i prefer being by myself
emma means home
but also universe
the universe is my home
my home is my universe

i like it here
hope you sneak by sometime
feel my world
i like it anyway
hope you do too

Comments

[deloric]

keep posting here!
Its not just for me, you write for you too!
I'm sorry.
I'm older and you are too.
hope you have a nice day.

[vaa]

hey thanks sweetheart <3

i know ive mentioned it, but it was so freaky :)

2 random women i dont know that well really, one said i was the best photographer in sweden, hey! this was in 2021 autumn/winter

"you used to make so much art poetry music, what happened to that?"

so people get my artsy things as visions. i know. i got it once after bella left me. i smoked 3½ cigarillos and got some visions for split seconds. then never again with cigs. people always get visions with cigs. and drinking. astral projection when drunk. have you experienced it when smoking weed?

hey 3 comments! ^___^ some change is gonna do me good :)