vaa | poem ^_

my mom has

screamed to me twice

when i lived at home

YOU DESTROY EVERYTHING

so i turned into

a perfectionist

with a lot of despair

the despair ive accepted

in some ways im stronger

and i heal too

and i get poem ideas

and quotes to me

id prefer plus polarity

synchronicity though

but dont have

much of that left

i also tried to

be perfect for every

woman i met

online and offline

which just meant

that i fucked

up eventually

and they just

turned quiet online

or ignored me IRL

and i blame

myself for

it all

its easier that way

than getting bitter

i was bitter than women didnt choose me

just someone average after id warmed them up

but i dont mind

i was laughed at by everyone

but i was still myself

and then i met bella

so it was worth it