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oh. the angels are talking about me.

so i cleared all my bad karma.

and my friends in hell are.

but if i dont just get progreammed

and lie stonefaced

i will only almost be commanded

that i only did wrong.

my eyes are stronger as the sun.

i got some idea that i was

thomidae jovovich.

xe had golden eyes.

the most beautiful on earth.

completely cold gaze.

but cats have a blank stare

because they see everything

infinitely.

what you see is not

what you get.

you have to think

beyond the mindcontrol.

even if it seems

no one cares

they still do.

you will be awarded

in the future

finally.

if you reflect the suns rays back.

to shield yourself

all your friends will be blinded by it.

because you are more pure metal.

every combination possible.

the true colour is yellow.

but it depends.

oh. now im supposed

to be a monkey?

ree ree still say theyre ok.

if you cant see the whole sky.

then how will you know about

the planets movement?

if you believe

everything on the news

you will just be

stonefaced-

this is dreamwidth.

this is life review.

it wasnt that difficult.

just be yourself

and it will be alright.

i have no friends

but the sky is on my side.

after bella i didnt need anyone else.

and i become the sun and i become the sky.

i wanted to say to denise.

that if your friends treat you like shit.

why do you have them?

same with xhyljeta.

so. i never actually sleep.

i dont have a problem with that.

when you sleep you get mindcontrolled.

i guess i could make a movie about this.

at ultimate frequency

it happens automagically.

tori amos said long ago

to create my own reality

whatever they say

it doesnt have to be true.

you have to believe in yourself.

you still need to think about

how everyone treats you.

and with bitchute i learned

to think in 10 different

paralel reatlies to every opinion.

so bella leaving me was good.

we were always had mind control.

just believe in yourself

another of my children

are talking to me.

the spirits talking to you

might make you believe things

are horrible just because

you are yourself.

my mother told me long ago

i wont die.

you dont need drugs.

alcohol weed

i chose dip.

for everyone its different

right. im talking to joe madden II.

so its gonna be ok however you do it.

it might be lonely. just be yourself

and itll be alright.

if you have to fight to survive

and have no friends

iitll still be ok.

yes. after bella

i felt no need to create anymore.

and theres a beltom universe.

so whatever they try to control you with.

just be yourself.

follow some rules.

so. the nanochip made

my back get smaller.

by about 20 centimeters.

and i need the staffs

help to heal me up.

so. i sound like a loser.

failer. faker. sellout.

by i was so all over

the place.

right. feel like a loser.

on many levels.

liar. and i have to talk like this

infinitely.

its still sofia. tomas. emma.

many. i lost 2 chakras.

yes. when i still lived

with my family

it was fun to be buzzed out.

i have incredible challenges.

the time just stops.

and i have to figure out

how to make it

the clcokwork start again

right. i have no heart chakra

and no spine.

i get it.

i spawned for ½ year

as sofia.

she has always been with me.

it was fun when the sun went down

and i had to fight for survival.

where everything mattered

to the nth degree.

i dont like throwing things

ayway. but i still do.

if i get completely stonewalled.

i try to say something to someone

i liked. i will eventually spam

them beyond their degree

they will try to destroy me

but they cant.

i will get a lot of enemies

but it will still be alright.

so. it changed quickly.

yes. i sound like a loser?

right. i have no life chakra either.

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so. learbed a lot about deep data mining hell. im ok. its justdifferent. i believe in too many people. if things are useless its still possible to evolve, but if you have no outside influenence then youll justs repeat yurself. ao youre supposed to work for your money. and im ok. ill just write for awhile. i wondeered why miss mom said certain phrases or only some things at some times. but its ok. illl survive. its difficult but its ok. i can write for 5 hours or basically a long time. not haiving anxiety is problematic. but just be true to yourself and itll be alright. wake up. be for real. i evolved myself by writing. basically to tracey. and its still ok. tou xcan survive misery by just being yourself. that there are rules for things? how does it matter. dont sell out. for awhile i culd write in splitscreen. theyll never ruin me. its ok. whoever you are. its difficult but itll be ok. now i dont haveto struggle to survive so ill keep on writing. if you have voices in your head you can use neuroleptics. but its a diffireent world. its dificult. but it will work. so ill be blasted by demons instead of 100 spirit entities attacking me from every angle. so this isthe reason. right. keep your concentration. hthere are enemies in hell but evolving yourself through thinking still works. youll crystalize your mind. no matter what they do, be yourself. so as you can see i use. yeah. not allowed to say that. so ill check some vids, work out, and reflect on hthe hell ofthe world. if they say youre worthless you still arent. i finally connected to one of my fans back in the day. yes police mindconrtrol is toworks. but not for me. they can say youre worthless but you still have to struggle. it will be difficult. and yeah before i couldnt use. right. i dont care. ill be myself. seemingly no one cared about me but they still do. theyll say youre worth shit and youll never be alloewd to do anythng. juststonefaced. still . struggle. itll be alright.

so youre supposed to fight by working out? but writing works out your brain, you cant break me. ill try to check some music vids adnd get insane mindcontrol and theyll say im destryoing hte owlrd. but its not true. yeah when i was a junkie for awhile smileys work. but after bella thats gone. over time dip erodes your soul. but otherwise ill still .

right. no matter how much they try to mindcontrol me it wont work. no annunaki bullshit ddoesnt. you still need some input to write. but ill survive. so aquiring skills works but not aquiring knowledge? sure. so all those sellouts are actually mind ptorgrammed? what the point then? no they cant datamine me. teardrops are unique. they have a soul. youll know that.

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i wrote for so long. but tits alright no matter whtat you do.they say all my art is gone. but if you research. they try to make you fit in in school. it takes a lot of practive to be yourself. but its ok.

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im supposed to pause. but i wont. if you work out a lot its ok? but working out your brain isnt? i can write for a long time and bella appreciated that. and tracey too. you cant break me.

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so. i needed to use a lot of dip. andit ditn actually work. my brain decaeddyed so much i had no creativity. buts its ok now. school is basically hell. they mind porgram you. if you can still. right. have no creativity. it wasnt much poit nt to write to tracey but theres still a point. ive been called pig monkey and then ape. but they all have different attributes. and i know they hare positive too. some entity is saying "seas brain works differetntly".they cant break me. right. its like living at home. but still not so bad. they said the entire earth was destroyed but its not. i still hear people.ao rimw HASNT ACTUALLY STOPPED.

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so. when time stops you can do infinite things. but your body decays but it doesnt?